We're goin' to the beach

2011-06-19T20:02:00.001+09:00

I have a man cooking in my kitchen. I like this. Now if only I were playing video games the gender roles would be completely reversed and I'm pretty sure a time-space vortex would open...

2011-03-09T21:13:00.002+09:00

I can read comics and yet I've yet to read any...what up with that??

Going to play Zelda.

Looking into airtickets home. It's going to be pricey : ( worth it, but pricey. I desperately need a vacation.

Going Diesel shopping in April (most likely)! These will be my reward jeans for weight lose. I just hope I can fit the size I'd like to get!! If not, another month...another month...

Gotta catch up on my friends blogs!! Sorry guys!! I do care, I've just been otherwise disposed as of late.

2011-03-02T08:39:00.000+09:00

I can read comics again <3

I'm so happy <3

2011-02-18T22:46:00.003+09:00

My boots broke today. The zipper unzipped itself beyond repair. They had a good run...3 months. I mourn the passing, but not much to do since they also had holes in them and were to be thrown out once the season ended. The throwing out just happened sooner than expected.

2011-02-06T09:38:00.003+09:00

This last week has been an emotional roller-coaster to say the least. From almost suicidal self-loathing, to genuine happiness, it's been up and down. Not much really happened though XD

Life of an imperfect perfectionist is tiring...

2011-01-23T18:41:00.000+09:00

Misery. Great movie. My favorite line from the movie.

2011-01-10T00:20:00.001+09:00

This year, I want to do something with my life.

Youtube link!!

2011-01-03T13:40:00.001+09:00

An oldie, but a goldie. I love it!

Would you like to ride with Batman?
I'd be down with it.

TUMBLR!!!!!

2010-12-29T13:06:00.003+09:00

I got a tumblr account!
Check it out!! It'll be a little of everything...once I get it started...

http://sdmccarty.tumblr.com/

Christmas Review

2010-12-26T11:04:00.002+09:00

Yesterday's PT was the best I've had...my trainer said so. Did the det lifts the best I ever had (I got a high five for it) and we moved onto wide legged squats. It was a great feeling of accomplishment and hope to continue to improve in 2011! I just hope the week off of the gym (since it's closed...) doesn't set me back too much. I'm going to attempt to exercise even over the break, but that might not work out...haha. Unintentional pun! Bad job, me, bad job.

For my "Christmas Dinner," I had a hamburger-bagel, a fruit plate, and a sweet bean bread. It was good. Not really Christmassy, but that's okay. The normal things for the US are rather expensive here, and I can't eat fried chicken and didn't want to eat a normal cake (Japanese style), so I made do with what I wanted...bread, meat, and fruit.

Finished off two pictures I owed for Christmas. They were finished on time! Go me!

Sent a couple of emails, did some Facebook-ing.

Then played some video games and called home. Went to bed shortly after that. Didn't get to sleep 'til much later, but I went to bed none-the-less.

Today, the day after Christmas, I will gym, then go to my friends 'Good-bye Party' and enjoy that. Tomorrow is work...unless I take off. I should probably go in so I don't get used to not going then get all disgruntled with having to go when school starts up again...but...but...

2010-12-06T20:52:00.002+09:00

Mondays always make me depressed :(

Like, for real.

A random selection of "funny" pictures...none of which really helped...

http://damnyouautocorrect.com/2391/ultimate-frisbee/

I started a NEW blog!!

2010-11-19T21:08:00.002+09:00

About writing! Since I do it sparingly! (take that comment how you will)

The intro:
"November. It's the month of NaNoWriMo...I know that last bit stands for month so I'm being terribly redundant, but that is how we will live for now. This month of months has inspired me to write without editing or care (well, some care since it is a story and I don't want to create such terrible writing as to be compared to feces...unless you find them terribly entertaining in which case I do want to be compared to them...well, my writing, perhaps not me as a person). I know it's a bit too late to start now on NaNoWriMo since November is almost over and whatnot. But, I am going to attempt to embark on a mission to write a novel up to their standards...which is a lot of words. A lot of them. I will write without editing and probably with little forethought.

I hope you enjoy. Please feel free to tell me what you think. I may occasionally leave comments with my thoughts or comments on the writing. I will post whatever I have whenever I have it.

Please enjoy.

Also, I plan on writing drunk sometimes. See if you can figure out when I did (and when I didn't, but should have)! <3 "

The blog is here: No Va Writing
(also, check out the side notes! I already have side notes...which are more like warnings...)

2010-11-15T21:47:00.002+09:00

I got my weight training gloves today. They are awesome. I feel so cool in them! Now to get the awesome body to go with the awesome gloves...

2010-11-14T17:11:00.003+09:00

Two days worth of weight training in one day. If I'm not sore tomorrow then I lift too little. But I am seeing some results from it. Thanks to HotGym. He's good people.

I hope the weight training gloves I bought come soon. My hands are getting a touch callused...

2010-11-03T21:21:00.002+09:00

My back hurts today. The left side. I guess I over did something. Too many ab exercises? Too thrustful with my punches? Slept too long? I'm not sure which, but I'm guessing it's the last one there. So, today at the gym, I took it way easy. Very very easy.

Today was Culture Day, so it was a holiday. No work. I didn't really do much. Not much at all.

All in all, it was a good day. No Fidou, but a good day.

2010-11-03T00:11:00.002+09:00

I exercised for a bit over 3 hours today.
I'm TOTALLY undoing all of it by drinking a cream liquor now.
...and am having a cheese burger tomorrow morning (yes, for breakfast!). I even got the cheese and everything already. I just have to wake up tomorrow, clean the dishes I'm going to use, do a bit of prep work and then eat like a fattie. A very happy fattie. Unless the cheese disagrees with me. In which case a happy-then-unhappy fattie.

I wonder if you can actually not eat enough fat regularly so your body starts to crave it bad... I know that your body can get addicted to sugars and so forth, so I try not to over do the sugars so it can't get addicted to them. But, I wonder if I've cut out my fats too much. If I had to guess, I'd guess that I normally have about 10-15 grams a day. It seems like a lot to me, but I don't think it is, actually. I know I'm getting a lot less now that I've stopped school lunch (over half is fried foods and I can't handle fried foods without a few beers in me [it's true!], so I had to stop it so I could eat lunch). I'll ask some trainers and see what they have to say.

Normally. This cream liquor probably has me in the 30 gram range steadily climbing to a bazillion shortly.

I need to buy weight training gloves. My hands are going to get all callused. Which would be fine, but I think I need to get my "jyousei-ryoku"(girl power [basically, girl-ness]) upped not downed. Or move to a country where the men are actually manly, for the most part.

2010-10-30T15:25:00.002+09:00

Thank god Halloween only comes once a year. Candy Corn is my crack. It truly is. It's about the ONLY candy that I love so much as to eat until I'm sick. I love it so much. Too much. I ate almost all that my mom sent me. Thank goodness there's none in this country. I want more. And I don't. I love it. And I hate it. I want it. I need it. And I don't.

Who else digs candy corn? Am I the only one?

2010-10-27T20:06:00.001+09:00

I went to the gym today. I didn't want to, but I did. I'm glad that I did. It was good even if I did only walk for an hour. I kinda hope to go tomorrow as well, but I'm so tired now who knows.

2010-10-26T23:43:00.002+09:00

Yesterday it was so hot I thought about wearing shorts and had all my windows open.
Today it's so cold that I need a jacket...and 2 or 3 layers MORE! Winter got here suddenly...too suddenly.

Exercised for about 4 hours today. Good times. Good times. Worst part is, it'll still probably take a few hours to get to sleep. Good part, it was fun and hopefully made me just that much healthier...or tomorrow I won't be able to move...perhaps both...At least I didn't stay at home and drink too much. Which is one reason I gymed for so long. There's no one here to make me not drink/I'd rather hang with (and can) and NOT drink/etc.

Eh. I'm tired. Just not so much physically...

2010-10-24T17:13:00.001+09:00

A student gave me a pumpkin.
I wonder if I should eat it...or carve it...or both.

2010-10-23T21:48:00.001+09:00

Went to a Fidou class today. It was GREAT! I really need to start enjoying my exercise more. I ran for one minute...it made me feel good since I hate running...

2010-10-11T19:22:00.000+09:00

The total agony and total euphoria...

2010-10-09T19:33:00.002+09:00

I am alive.

Today was a good day.

Except for the fact that my ankle and knee started to hurt before I could gym. But, I guess that is okay. It just means I need to lay off the gym a bit for a bit. Yes! Many bits in one sentence!

In other news, I am socially booked up for a bit. I got plans on Monday, Tuesday, AND Wednesday! Granted, one is personal training, so I'm not so sure how that's going to work out, but it is. That's social as far as I am concerned since I get to talk to my personal trainer. Last week he asked me lots of questions and initiated conversation. Good sign as far as I'm concerned. Perhaps I have a shot? Perhaps not? Who knows!?

Today was the first day of 新人戦(shinninsen = where the 2 and 1 years get to go out and play sports without being overshadowed by the 3 years). I went to track. It was good. I had a good time. One 3 year kept telling me not to do stuff so that was kinda bad. I felt bad for joking too much...that 3 year got to me. Oh well. Tomorrow is a new day and I hope to be awesome and not as much of a problem...

2010-09-26T20:43:00.001+09:00

I found an AMAZING jacket today. Only real problem? It's about $160. Yeah. That's a lot. But it felt really nice, and is cuter than anything that I own or could ever own ever. But mostly it felt nice.

2010-09-16T21:23:00.000+09:00

I'm catching cold :'(

2010-09-11T19:25:00.002+09:00

PT sucked today. I just couldn't do anything...Luckily HotGym is nice so he said basically all the right things...well, they would be all the right things if anything he said would be the right thing, but I push myself extra hard. I had thought "Well, I may not be trying that hard in other areas of my life, but at least I'm gyming hard!" and then I could even do that so I felt very down. I then walked for 45 minutes (like his advice actually), and started to do some abs. He came over to put folders away and told me not to push myself so hard. To take it slow. Which I know I should. So, I stopped and stretched then came home.

But. Still. Sucky.

2010-09-09T21:25:00.003+09:00

Abs only hurt a slight bit. Mostly around the obliques.

More are needed apparently.

2010-09-08T21:12:00.000+09:00

I did about 550 crunches at the gym today. Let's see if I feel it tomorrow. I'm betting on the no side...

2010-09-07T23:34:00.001+09:00

So, I heard you hurt yourself at the gym, eh? Blood came out and everything, eh? Fidou a bit too rough for you?

...No, not in Fidou. Well then how? Weight troubles?

... ...with a brush...? While brushing your hair...? You wounded yourself bad enough to bleed by brushing your hair?
Good thing you left your body brushes at home, eh.

2010-09-04T09:20:00.002+09:00

I had a dream about fat, large carrots being on sale.
The prices of fresh fruit and veg apparently is getting to me.

2010-08-27T17:56:00.001+09:00

I just received a text message that was mostly unintelligible from a person who is supposed to teach English to kids...My faith in this program is dwindling more than it already was.

Today I was introduced to the students.
I got in good with the 'bad boys' in 3rd year. I'm set for this year. Awesome!
I also got a couple of 'nice body's and a 'cool face.' Teenage boys have low standards...

2010-08-20T17:20:00.001+09:00

Luckily most of my phone was restored, but I'm still not 100% happy with this thing yet...

2010-08-20T17:11:00.003+09:00

I wanted to leave early. Needless to say, my stupid phone has completely effed up and now I'll probably be leaving a touch late. So far this new iPhone has been nothing but trouble. It's good features are not outweighing all the trouble it's caused.

If I have to re-add ALL my phone book, I'll be pissed. I got about half of it in and that took a few hours. Granted, if I could download the phone book program for iPhone, it'd be easier, but I need a Japanese iTunes account...which I don't have, so I can't. Stupid iPhone. Stupid, stupid iPhone.

2010-08-20T17:04:00.001+09:00

I just read a couple tutorials from fox-orian and feel, for lack of a better term, kinda brain-fucked. Seriously hardcore stuff there. Reading it really makes me want to try harder and practice harder at the scribblings I call art. His work is really awesome. And I mean that in the original intention of the word - awe inspiring. The way he talked about composition and perspective and balance, scale, depth, and whatnot really has my mind reeling. It's a good feeling. Makes me want to get a giant table and start to work extra hard on my works. I have a strong desire to draw something ANYTHING using what he's said, but I'm at work, so I can't...especially since I have a speech kid coming in a few minutes. This one thing he said: REMEMBER THAT COMPOSITION AND CRITICAL THINKING ARE IMPORTANT SKILLS THAT ALL ARTISTS MUST BE FAMILIAR WITH. is something that I really need to remember. I think that I don't think enough about what I'm drawing when I do draw. And I hardly ever have backgrounds. I think I am still at the stage where I need to work on my figures a bit more then start on bgs and whatnot while continuing with the figures. I know I have a lot of work to do on my drawing and I haven't been putting in nearly enough time for it lately. Perhaps I need to just take the plunge and not worry so much about if it comes out "perfect" or whatnot. Just doing it may be a good start. If I fail, at least I may be able to get some good critiques out of it and learn something.

2010-08-18T00:31:00.002+09:00

I've only really had one boyfriend - how pathetic is that?

Personal training is going well. I can feel the effects even if it's yet to really be seen. My legs will be amazingly sore tomorrow I think. The training was on Monday, so I gymed extra hard today to try to make tomorrow not as terrible as it could be.

I'm slowly getting better I think. I stopped taking the anti-depressants since they were really screwing with me...in MANY bad ways. I'm feeling less suicidal and more motivated now. Hopefully once they get out of my system I'll be back to normal even if it means I vomit more. I prefer that in multiple ways.

I plan on going to the doctor on Thursday. Hopefully we'll have good news by then. I'm still not 100%, but at least it's more than >50% like I've been for the past month+.

2010-08-10T20:06:00.001+09:00

http://unhappyhipsters.com/post/888518823/another-friday-night-spent-spilling-his-guts-to

2010-07-02T21:13:00.001+09:00

Oh, good. I've spent half of today tossing my cookies. I'm glad to hear that. But not really...at all.

2010-07-02T14:04:00.001+09:00

Today's song.

2010-06-30T22:39:00.000+09:00

Wine on an almost empty stomach. Both bad and good.

I did laundry and made rice. I'm all set for tomorrow to suck.

2010-06-30T17:34:00.001+09:00

It's kinda like my job now but with less work, more lies, and a higher pay.

2010-06-29T23:40:00.001+09:00

I ate so much today...

No classes today since there were tests. I got to grade the little writing section on the tests for 2nen. It was good. Took a little over an hour to grade 7 sections. I'm good.

Gym was good. Hot and good.

2010-06-28T11:19:00.002+09:00

haha, almost passed out at the bus stop. Took a day off with sick leave. Good times.

Now, I'm sitting at home, hydrating, trying not to eat too much and drawing pictures. I might catch some z's a little later on, but who knows.

All this and I'm still going to the gym tonight. HotGym and promises. 2 things that make going to the gym a must.

2010-06-28T06:28:00.000+09:00

I need to lay off the red wine.

I do. Greatly.

Just 'cause.

2010-06-27T21:55:00.002+09:00

It's supposed to rain for the next 3 days.

I have no rain shoes.

This will suck.

Damn you rainy season! Damn you!

2010-06-23T18:38:00.001+09:00

"At 15, not knowing who you are..."
I'm 20-something, and I still have no idea who the bloody hell I am. I honestly have no idea.

All I do know is that I'm going to meet my friend's friend who is a rapper on Friday night. Should be darn good. There's nothing like rappers. The first (and last...) one I met said he'd date me as soon as I turned 25. Good times. Good times.

2010-06-23T00:06:00.001+09:00

Check out the interview I did. You know, if you'd like. It's an interview with Greg Capullo of Spawn (and a few more) fame.

2010-06-21T06:46:00.000+09:00

I am excited by this.

2010-06-20T14:12:00.001+09:00

Music of the moment

2010-06-19T17:18:00.002+09:00

I bought exercise pants today. They are a Japanese M, an American S, and a UK 10. I honestly didn't think I was that small. They must be making the pants a little larger than normal since we're in a recession.

Now you all know my size.

Also, the pants are PHANTOM/PINKBUZZ.

2010-06-18T16:41:00.001+09:00

Totally true. That half-way mark is almost more awesome than finishing.

2010-06-18T16:00:00.001+09:00

Didn't end up going to the classes. Just did some weights and then took a shower and left. Suck ass.

2010-06-18T12:24:00.003+09:00

My knee kinda hurts so no hardcore gyming today. I'll go to a few classes (...2) and then see about buying a knee brace after. Gotta get new exercise clothes since 2 sets aren't really working. I basically have to do laundry once a day. And I dislike doing laundry. I obviously do it, but everyday is a little too much for me.

2010-06-18T11:56:00.001+09:00

No smile yesterday :(

Maybe today.

2010-06-17T16:20:00.002+09:00

I've had many cups of cold Jasmine tea today. It's been a good day. The only thing that can make it better is a hot cup of good Earl Grey with just the right amount of milk. I have no milk so this dream will have to wait. Which I'm fine with since it's over 28 degrees.

One of the girls at the front desk of the gym smiled at me yesterday. It was a cute smile. A real one. That made me happy. I hope to receive more smiles more often.

2010-06-16T23:36:00.003+09:00

I just made a new blog account. This is for people who are friends and not family. If you have interest, send me a mail and I'll get back to you about it.
This new account is basically I diary with the ability for a few select people to see it. It'll be my dairy of sorts with viewers.

2010-06-06T22:22:00.000+09:00

I just like this song. Anything with Verbal in it is much better. Add Kanye, and you have a combo that just can't be beat.

2010-06-06T21:04:00.002+09:00

I just noticed on the gym monthly schedule:

~ In rainy day, Let's enjoy work out here! ~

is written. Wow, gym, wow. nice effort. I hope it wasn't my friend trainer who speaks English well 'cause I'd be a little saddened by that from her. She's better than that. Much better.

2010-06-06T20:22:00.002+09:00

This bird is like me. Except that I'm not that into sausages...

Take that as you will. Had a hot dog at school lunch and it was disappointing. Very.

2010-06-06T19:42:00.002+09:00

I went to the store.
No young children after me goods.
Nice job, me.

I had a pretty good time at the gym today. It was enjoyable.
I kinda want wine...maybe I'll buy some...

2010-06-05T14:42:00.002+09:00

I must buy laundry detergent.
Last time I did, I got a 14 year old at my door asking me for sex.
I wonder what I'll get this time?

Probably nothing, let's be honest here. Nothing is a safe bet, but still...

2010-06-05T11:05:00.000+09:00

I just hit myself in the head with a hanger.
Good times.

2010-06-04T00:00:00.002+09:00

We did more "This is ~." "That is ~." practicing today. We even learned the question form. I got to steal student's things again. Good times. Pictionary was good times as well. I got them to draw the teacher a couple of times (twice). The first time was a little frightening, the second was kinda cute.

Took nenkyuu (paid leave) tomorrow. Going to work on an entry into a contest that I have no shot of winning, but I really want to do it since I think it'll give me a push in the right direction. Also, drinking party tomorrow. Taking off work, but going to the drinking party. Life is good. It's not formal. I'm excited. Going to a club after that. It should be good times. If it's not, something went terribly wrong.

2010-06-02T23:15:00.003+09:00

I brought a banana to class today.
"This is my banana."
Good times. It was a stuffed banana, so it's not so dangerous. A real banana may have been eaten. Stolen and eaten. As it was, my banana was just felt up. Many times.

I hope that above statement is used against me somehow. Feeling up bananas is just something that one shouldn't do. Although I didn't do it. I was just the catalyst. Well, the bringer of the catalyst. I maybe should have brought the apple or strawberry, but my banana just fit into my pencil case so much better.

2010-05-31T22:16:00.002+09:00

Went to the gym today. Went to fighting. Did it. Enjoyed myself. I think I've seriously gained weight over the last week...or two. I need to not do that anymore. I'm so close to my goal. I don't want to lose now. I got my friend to promise to punch me if I don't go to the gym everyday this week...except possibly Friday and Saturday (it's closed on Saturday). I want to get stronger. I do. And for that to happen, I need to gym. Hard. Often.

...all night? No. Not all night. They do close...eventually...

2010-05-29T12:54:00.003+09:00

I bought a rather gay belt. It's much more ... sparkly in real life. Much more. It was also on sale. Good times.

Also, the bag states:
TO BE ONSELF, ONE MUST
USE THEIR OWN IMAGINATION.
ONE MUST NEVER FORGET TO
STRIVE TO BETTER ONESELF.
THIS KIND OF WOMAN
I WANT TO BECOME.

...and I do. I want to be awesome...and better...at stuff...all kinds of stuff...

Baseball in the PM. Should be good. Should be. Unless it rains and gets really cold...like it's supposed to...

2010-05-26T19:53:00.002+09:00

I didn't go to the gym today either. I really have to start going again. I like it. I know I do. Tomorrow is fighting, so hopefully that'll be enough to motivate me to go.

2010-05-25T19:55:00.001+09:00

Totally just heard my first bit of thunder here in Sendai.

Awesome!!

...although that pretty much puts my plan to walk school tomorrow to rest. It'll probably be raining then...oh well. We'll see what tomorrow brings when it gets here.

2010-05-25T19:54:00.001+09:00

I'm losing some of my vigor to do things. Like go to the gym, or draw. I'm becoming lazy, and that ain't cool. Not cool at all.

2010-05-24T21:12:00.002+09:00

haha, I spent half of today figuring out a way to not-so-unhealthily starve myself. I came up with a good plan. It'll save me moneys too. Pretty sure that if I did it, it'd only last 3 days at most. I like food way too much for my good.

Had elementary school today. It wasn't as bad as I had feared it would be.

It's been raining for the last 2 days and will supposedly rain for the next 2. Kinda sucks. Especially since I have no good rain shoes.

Going to baseball this Saturday with some teachers. Should be fun!

2010-05-24T07:27:00.003+09:00

I disgusted myself yesterday...with myself. Bad times.
Which is creating more stress that I put on myself for no reason. Also bad times.

...I need to get to the gym to work out my stress. I need to look into some actual boxing classes. Not that I have the money for it. I've been buying too many clothes and wine lately. Nothing for a bit, though. That's what happens when you run low on money. I feel bad 'cause I should be able to save more. I would like to buy a pair of shorts to go out in. That's the other thing. Work clothes - not so much bought. Going out clothes - pretty much it. I can't really wear the going out clothes to work...it's not that they are 'sexy,' so much as they are too casual...and not appropriate at all for work. Oh well. I have enough clothes for work. Going out - not so much. Which is why I want a pair of shorts. Maybe I can get some shortly. And no more wine. I don't need it. I just want it.

I actually find myself rather pathetic.

2010-05-23T19:00:00.003+09:00

So, some guy I haven't talked to in months called me today.
It was a little strange.
I honestly don't get men...
At all.
I wish people'd be more honest. It may be painful, but it's better in the end. It really is.

2010-05-22T20:18:00.002+09:00

I had a really vivid lesbian sex dream last night.
It was intense.
And weird.

Went to a park and played with children and a few adults. Good times. Good times, indeed.

2010-05-20T11:07:00.003+09:00

Haha, got dizzy walking to the bus stop today. Totally took the day off. Now I can work on the comic and take it easy. Passing out in class isn't a good idea...despite it being a secret goal of mine for a few weeks...

Next week will be extra bad. I have elementary school almost every day. And plans almost everyday as well.

On another note, I need to get into the gym. I haven't been all week...and shalnt go today...and not just 'cause I got dizzy this morning. The gym is closed. It's the 20th.

On another another note, payday is tomorrow. That's a good thing. I got 84¥ on me. Whoo! Buying new clothes has taken me moneys. Gotta send home another box of overly large clothes home. I hope that my cousins can wear them or use them...or that someone can. Gonna bust out my summer clothes soon. Then we'll see how many of those actually fit...and see if my boxing will be more. My mailing? I'm not sure which noun is more appropriate to turn into a verb for this. Since I'm not using appropriate words, either way should be fine. Pick your favorite and go with it.

2010-05-16T20:47:00.003+09:00

Saw 'The Others' today. It wasn't as good as I had hoped, but not too bad. It wasn't a horror at all. That is what it's classified as - horror?

Also saw 'The Memory Keeper's Daughter.' It was good. Definitely a good mellow-mood movie. The book, as usual, was better.

Now, I'm going to take a shower, then do my nails. Why? Because I can...and 'cause I need to take a shower. It's gotten cold again, so it'll be a hot shower then slightly frozen appendages...which always stinks (and why the gym is gone to very often in winter...I don't like freezing things off).

2010-05-16T19:13:00.002+09:00

Wanna know one thing that I do miss about home?

The bookstores.
Going in and being surrounded by all those words and thoughts and worlds and whatnot.
Also, I just found out that my favorite author has released 2 new books. I'm excited. Although one is part of a trilogy of which I've read none...so I'm excited doubly...TRIPLY!!

...on a side note, I love the bookstores here in Japan as well...but the books are a bit harder to read.
...and slightly gayer (a Chemistry book where every element had a hot anime chick to personalize it...yeah...I saw it. I didn't buy it, but I should have. For science.)

2010-05-16T18:37:00.002+09:00

I went to this site here, and put in my digits. Turns out, by their standards, I'm at my ideal weight. In fact, if I lose 1 more kilo, I'd be underweight. I cannot believe that. I simply cannot. This 'rotund' and yet ideal? I think that they lie. I will celebrate this in a manner befitting such an event...weight training and hot classes...and fighting! TO THE GYM!! Tomorrow. No gyming today. None. I laid about all day. It was good. Very good. Except not. I was sick to my stomach...too much cheap wine last night. Too much. Gotta stop the drinking...but it's a coping mechanism. I'M COPING WITH SOMETHING. I DON'T KNOW WHAT, BUT I AM. Although I do need to cut it out. I don't want a wine belly.

Now, it's ideal, but is it healthy? I need to check to see how much body fat I got...in 2 weeks. MONTH END HEALTH CHECK!!

...I may need new hobbies. Not that I've been doing any of my hobbies lately...except for gyming and Zelda-ing. In Japan, listening to music counts as a hobby. Was it always like that? even in non-mecha countries?

If hopes were fishes...

2010-05-16T15:58:00.003+09:00

If only the detail was a scorpion like I originally thought it was.... These shoes'd be awesome then. AWESOME.

On an unrelated note, my sock has a giant hole in it. GIANT. 3 holes. GIANT ONES.

KANCHO!!

2010-05-15T11:07:00.002+09:00

On Tuesday, I went to elementary school.
This is a conversation that took place...

S (Student - male): Sherry, I heard you have a boyfriend.
M (Me...Sherry): No, I have no boyfriend.
S: But I heard you did...
M: No. I don't.
S: ...but, you do.
M: No. No, I don't.
S: Well, if you 'dieted,' you'd get one.
M: Right now I'm taking fighting. Wanna go?
S: ...no...that's scary. But, if you 'dieted,' you'd get a boyfriend.
M: ...ok.
S: Bye!
M: See ya later, kid.

hoho, kids are so cute...and I got told by a 12 year old to lose weight. That's just pathetic.

2010-05-09T09:53:00.001+09:00

Yesterday.
Fighting.
Jump kick.
AWESOME!!

2010-05-08T21:37:00.000+09:00

I've gotten so used to being more than one person that I don't know who I really am anymore. Is that bad? I like to think of it as a coping mechanism and a way to survive in a world where I am expected to be more than one thing.

2010-05-07T06:37:00.001+09:00

Had a box of beans for breakfast again. Good times. Good times.

2010-05-06T22:07:00.004+09:00

The gym was amazing today! It is actually great to be back! I think the secret is classes. Just going to work out isn't so much fun if there's no friends around. Well, that and not being on the first days of a period also help. Those are the worst. But, now that is almost over and I'm enjoying the gym. It made me feel pretty good about myself and I sweated like a pig...well, like a pig would probably sweat if pigs did indeed sweat.

Also, I got invited to go to a baseball game with some coworkers! That should be AWESOME! Whoo!!! I'm so excited!! Got asked by the hot lunch man. Score.

Think I'm going to walk to school tomorrow. That should be fun. I have elementary school, so I'm allowed to be later than normal. Quite a bit later. Whoo!! Gonna walk to school and probably not be awesome there!

Today is photo-heavy

2010-05-05T19:42:00.003+09:00

So, needless to say, this post goes out to Krisbones. I expect full attention when he returns to the land of the internet.

Today, I went for a walk. Why? Because the weather is beautiful...and the gym is closed...mostly that second. Also, I wanted to check out the northside of my southside area. Got it? Good.

That's the closest train line...the north side of it and some apartments. The closest train station is about a 30 minute walk away from my apartment. That's a pretty leisurely walk, mind.

The circus is in town! For real. The bendy-people circus.

More north side.

Even more north side.

Organic foods store. At least I think. I didn't go. It was on the opposite side of the road...

A Rastafarian-like store. I got a bracelet and ring there (photos later).

In case you were wondering. Tokyo is pretty far...

Safety first, kids. Safety for you.

The wall says SEX and something else that I couldn't make out.

3 "dresses" I bought. Only one is long enough/non-see-thru enough to be a dress. That white one is really weird...

The bag of goods from the Rastafarian-like store.

The ring and bracelet. Don't mind the burn on my hand from cooking. I admit that I cooked a little too intoxicated...and got burned twice doing it. Live and learn.

On a final note, I met a Japanese man who speaks with a Jamaican accent. Good times. Good times.

2010-05-03T14:42:00.001+09:00

My period started today.
I'M SO HAPPY!

2010-05-03T11:00:00.001+09:00

I really need to stop going to that sekku-hara club. But a promise is a promise...and free entry is free entry.

2010-05-01T12:15:00.001+09:00

Also, if you're in what is basically the basement of the volcano, how come the milk doesn't spoil? I mean, it should right? Granted, you don't burn up either, but I'd think the milk'd be a bit more sensitive to lava pits...

2010-05-01T10:26:00.000+09:00

...I'm glad that my first post in May has to do with an old video game and a chicken kidnapping. Life is good.

2010-05-01T10:22:00.002+09:00

Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time.
At the beginning part (when you're a kid), Marron gives you an egg which turns into a chicken overnight, right? Then you sneak in and find the princess. She gives you a letter. But you lose the chicken. What happens to the chicken? Does she take it and start a chicken farm? Is it released into the wild? If Link (or as I've named him this time around: Ramen) were a true hero, wouldn't he give the chicken back to Marron? I mean, that egg was important to her...and what does Ramen do the first chance he gets? Give up the chicken for a woman with money. I don't know about you, but I think Ramen should feel at least a little bad about it. Granted, saving the world of a reign of terror from a slightly green guy with a huge honker may be more important to most, but what happens to that chicken? That's what I want to know. I can see the letter being kept by that guard guy (it's for him after all), and the masks obviously go to the people who buy them, but the chicken. That's where the mystery is.

2010-04-30T21:15:00.001+09:00

Sorry. I just love this movie. This is probably my favorite 'joke' in the movie. I do generally laugh out loud when I see it.

2010-04-29T18:42:00.003+09:00

Life. Does it get more difficult because the more we age the more problems we face? Or is it because we make it more difficult?

2010-04-29T18:04:00.003+09:00

I took my blood pressure today at the gym. Pre-exercise was 98/65 with a heart-rate of 78. "Protein and salt is best to bring up your BP" that explains why I've been wanting meat lately. A lot of it. More than I should be eating. Tons of meat. Piles of it.
After workout was 121/85 with a heart-rate of 105 (about 1-2 minutes after finishing). Seems I should be okay. Just meat-i-fied. I think I'm going to go buy meat. Except I'm not. I'm going to cook tofu and garlic and pasta and onions...and be FAT. Alone and fat. Maybe try on an outfit for Saturday. Maybe just be fat.

Happy Showa Day!

2010-04-29T09:53:00.004+09:00

HAPPY SHOWA DAY!! Where we celebrate...showa? The era in Japanese history? I think...but I have no idea. I just have off work and had naan for breakfast. That's all I know.

NAAAAAAN!!!

2010-04-29T09:52:00.001+09:00

Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.
Mary Tyler Moore

haha, oh yeah!

2010-04-29T09:49:00.001+09:00

2010-04-19T14:19:00.003+09:00

When I have too much free time, I think too much.
That is very bad. Very very bad.
I don't like it.
I need even MORE hobbies. Or to not have a weekday off...Exercising for 4 hours doesn't seem like a good idea. It's either that or eat...Plying video games didn't seem to do it. Movies aren't interesting to me now...it sucks. Effe me.

2010-04-16T21:35:00.004+09:00

"You can't stop being who you are because of fear, right?"

Yeah, a good lesson for all.

For Krisbobes. The Robot Story...

2010-04-16T21:05:00.002+09:00

Night fell, but you could hardly tell. The smoke that always filled the air effectively kept the differences between day and night hidden, but the clocks still worked. They chimed once at the start of the day, twice for midday, and three times for the start of the sleeping hours. Ever since the robots took over, the day – life - had been much more organized. The humans had to make some adjustments but nothing too bad. Now they were masks to make the air breathable and they wore suits to protect them from the atmosphere that they found so poisonous. They slept in barrack-like buildings. In order to maintain their usefulness, the humans worked the day away. The robots had produced the pill that kept them alive. It gave them the energy for the work. If they refused to work, the robots refused them the pill. Everything equal – work for food, food for work. Being lazy was no longer a human’s prerogative. The robots were nice enough. But, sometimes it’s difficult for Masters to always be nice to the servants. The humans had tried to revolt against the robots a few times. All times the robots had to put it down. They had tried to be gentle, but humans rarely understood such things. With humans, it was either their way or no way – and the humans seldom had one way that they wanted it. If the robots gave into one demand, there would be hundreds of others to give into. It was annoying and a waste of time. After the first attempted revolt, the robots learned the way to deal with the humans. Force was to be used, usually brute. The humans were merely flesh and blood, but the robots were metal and electricity. They clearly had the advantage, and they used it to destructive ends. If the humans saw reason, then the robots would not have had to resort to force. They didn’t, they never do. Humans live too much in the now, and don’t think about the future. The robots do though. They have a plan. The humans wouldn’t be able to see the worth of the plan so the robots don’t share it. It’s too long term for the humans. The humans live for what used to be 50 years and then expire, but the robots live on, generation after generation after generation. Long term to a human is a robot’s short term. There is a beauty to that that humans will never be able to comprehend. But, there is also something beautiful in enjoying things for a short while that robots will never be able to understand. Both are missing some form of beauty in their lives, but neither can see it.
The day started out like any other. The chime to start the day rung out, the humans stirred in their bunks. But something was different – the humans didn’t rise. They merely remained laying down as if asleep. The robots noticed this almost immediately. Late risers were watched. A voice over the intercom system gave them a warning. They would either rise or face the consequences. They did not rise. The robots knew that the humans were alive – their vitals were checked constantly. Perhaps this was another of their revolts. Hopefully this one would be taken care of without bloodshed. The robots gave the humans one minute to rise before actions were taken. The humans didn’t move. The robots sent a small electric current to wake the humans up and punish them. Not a single one moved although a few cried out in shock and pain. A stronger one was sent – a few humans died. A stronger one was sent, and then a stronger one. They still didn’t move except in pain. The number of dead slowly increased. The robots stopped sending the electricity. They didn’t want to kill their workers. The robots let them lay there. The humans became confused. The robots watched and waited. Slowly the humans who had lived got up and looked around at the others. They had thought they had won. They smiled behind their masks. They lazed the day away. It came time for sleep. Most had lost most of their energy and fell asleep with no problem. The next morning the chime rang out again. The humans did not rise; they had all died in the night.

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I'm leaving the title typo 'cause it's a good one.

Today's workout was a fail. Saw HotGym, he was working out...practicing karate/fighting. He really is an awesome guy. Totally have no shot with him. Which I know, but it needs constant reminding.

I'm going to start posting more of my writing...1 page story go times!!

2010-04-14T23:40:00.003+09:00

We broke up how many months ago? I honestly can’t remember. I barely remember that time. After we did, I went through hell. That’s all I can remember.
I went out drinking almost every night.
I met men who weren’t you.
I told myself they were better than you.
I got the numbers of a couple of the basketball players of the local team.
I didn’t do anything with them that I wouldn’t have done with you if you had said something.
I had been willing to do anything for you.
Anything.
All you had to do was ask.
You asked for other things - the things that obviously didn’t matter. I agreed to all that you wanted. Lose weight? Ok. Wear makeup? Ok. Dress better? Ok. Speak more slowly? Ok. Don’t ask? Ok.
All I wanted – Don’t lie? No.
Granted, for months I had thought about breaking up with you, but I thought that I was just scared.
Scared of commitment.
Scared of ruining something because of fear.
Scared of being hurt.
Scared of pain.
You broke me. Did you know that? You broke me and now I’m not sure I can be fixed. Not that it’s a bad thing.
I got jewelry.
I got memories.
I got bruises.
I got experience.
Now I know what to look for – the dead eyes, the lack of attention, the fact that someone who is supposed to be going out with me doesn’t even remember the simple things about me. Did you ever listen to me?
Now I know what to expect – not much, the lateness, the inability to make time, the always being busy. Being busy going out with other people. I was yours, and you were everybody’s. Hardly fair, but we were young. You more so than I. You were a child. A brat, really. I was dumb. That’s your type, right? A person who’s too dumb to know what’s really going on. I should have known. The signs were there. The scratches on your back. The fact you never called back. The inattention. The late nights. The lack of money. The bad sex. The ill temper. The condom in your back pocket. Was it for me?
I’m glad we broke up. I think it was best for both of us.
I lay you down to rest, I pray the Gods your soul to rate. If you lie before I wake, I pray the Gods your balls to take.
You didn’t need me.
I don’t need you.
Life taught me a good lesson.
Did it you?
When will it, I wonder.
How many more lessons do we have to learn?
When do we become adults? Maybe next time we meet, I hope we’ll both have figured that one out.

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2010-04-14T23:02:00.001+09:00

I think something in me clicked back into place this weekend. Things happened (both which can be seen as good or bad depending on your point of view) and those things I think jolted my brain back to where it should be. A good long while ago something thing happened and that kinda broke me. I thought I fixed it, but it was like putting a band-aide over a seeping knife wound. Then, something else happened that made me feel as if the band-aide was working. But then I realized that I hadn’t fixed my problem, that in fact, it was a much worse problem than I thought and spent the next few months trying to figure myself out, trying many different things to ‘fix’ the problem. This weekend however, I think it finally got the sutures it needed to be okay. I actually feel much more relaxed than I have in months. I’m not sure if this will actually be the thing that makes it all better (well, as better as things can get) or not, but I do feel a lot better than I have in a good while.
Also, I wonder if just forgetting is a good enough defense mechanism. It’s a band-aide cure, but I wonder if it’s a good enough one. I think it has its time and place. I truly do.

2010-04-13T22:15:00.002+09:00

Today I got to talk/joke with the students a bit. That put me in a good mood.
Went to the gym. Exercised for about 2 hours. It was good. Who would have thought that I'd get to the point where my warm-up is a 30 minute jog/run? I surely didn't! But, that was my warm-up today. Afterward, some weight training and walking for about 45 minutes. It was good. Good times indeed.